9 months later // ME TIME

Soooooo literally its been 9 months since my last post. I could have carried and delivered a full term baby at this point… and I wish that was my excuse. In fact, I wish I had any excuse! Life the past, basically year, has been a roller coaster. I have moved, changed jobs, changed my hair color several times, had some health issues, gotten too busy for my own good, and many other things in-between. My schedule is close to impossible these days and I wish I had more time for… life! Sadly, there would never be enough time in a day to get everything done I would like to.
For the past few months or so, I have been thinking about my life and what it entails exactly. I mean honestly, I get up in the morning, work from about 9am-10pm most nights and then I have a couple of hours to spend with my husband watching the cooking channel, How To Get Away With Murder or Biggest Loser. Then we call it a night and repeat the same thing the next day.. and the next…and the next.
I don't have any hobbies really… I hangout with my family and husband. That's about it. When people ask me what I do for fun, or in my free time outside of work, I feel like such a fool. I say "uhhhh we go to the movies a lot?" It's really quite sad. I am trying to figure out how to balance everything in life and I still have a ways to go before I master it, but at least I'm actually aware that there's a problem! I wish so badly I was one of those people that worked normal hours, and could then make dinner and clean the house and be a cute house wife. Maybe a crafter, or a jewelry or bow maker. But I'm just not. A) because I literally don't have time. I'm lucky if I have enough time to kiss my husband goodbye before we both go to work, and B) because let's be honest, I will probably just never be some of those things. (I HATE CLEANING. I'm good for a couple days and then my house looks like it was hit by a bloody tornado.) But ANYWAYS. The point is I. Have. No. Time. Or at least thats what I've always thought…
I am in a position where I can basically set my own schedule. I have a couple days a week where I'll work at a salon, and then the rest of the time I work from home, taking hair and lash extension clients out of my house. I am so accommodating to everyone's schedule and I truly love my clients and what I do. But I definitely am guilty of putting other peoples needs before mine. More times than not I am taking clients until 9 or 10 at night. I have so many things I've wanted to try or make time to do that I just haven't done! I would love to somehow get back into taking voice lessons again, (I took them in high school and I've been in several choirs since I was little). I would love to take a pottery class, or a baking/cooking class. And I DEFINITELY want/need to make time to go to the gym. I can't say no to people when they ask, and I realize I'm only doing it to myself. This is something I really have a desire to work on and change in my life. I need to figure out my skills and hobbies outside of work cause "hanging out with friends/family and going to the movies" aren't real hobbies or skills…. unfortunately.
I am going to get a little religious here for a sec. God gave us all unique and special talents and he chose them for us individually. There is a reason we are good at what we are good at, and passionate about what we are passionate about. I truly believe our skills and talents were hand picked for us as individuals. It's just up to us to actually use them! I am starting to realize now that if I don't magnify the skills I have been blessed with, they will eventually go away. Something so special and personal should never be taken for granted.
I am excited to not only build upon the skills and talents I already have, but to also bring new hobbies and experiences into my life. I am going to plan my work around my "ME TIME" schedule. It is going to be very hard but I am going to do it! I am going to find a cycling or kickboxing class at the gym and plan my clients around that class everyday. I am going to look into the classes I want to take and plan my schedule and clients around when those are. I am starting to realize that if I don't continue to grow and expand (mentally, physically, emotionally, and spiritually) I will not be a happy person. I don't want to be stuck in this cycle I am in right now, or get too comfortable in life. I want to grow and find what my strengths are, in every way possible! I see the importance in having "ME TIME" and I can't wait to become a happier and healthier person.